Who Are You?

22 04 2010

Ah America! The land of the free, a place where opportunity is everywhere and where dreams do come true. America is also the land where obesity is rampant, the rich live in such intense fear that they create clubs, secret restaurants and gated homes and communities to lock out the world and create an illusion of aristocratic importance. The middle class and poor  blame the rich, living a life of fight and flight. Competition is fierce, disease is everywhere and even friends are scared to look directly into each other’s eyes for fear of judgement.

Why is this? Where did so much fear come from?

It is because we have forgotten who we truly are.

I grew up in a deeply rooted victim mentality. I began to think that my life will be filled with only pain. After a severely abusive episode I endured my eyes began to open. I stepped back and realized that I can have a different story. I noticed that I was the one who put myself in situations which caused pain and misfortune into my life. It was one of the most empowering moments of my life. I began my journey of awakening, learning who I truly was.

One of the things I realized was, I didn’t understand who I truly was. I lived my life by default and thought of myself as lower than anyone else. I therefore attracted situations to affirm that. When I began to write a new story, and a new me, situations that represented the new me showed up. I was amazed at how that worked and began to delve further into my discovery. I wanted to truly know who I was, not who I thought I was.

Fear is rampant in our society because no one lives from their truth. They live their life in complete fear. They go to a job they hate for fear of paying their bills. They put their children through over scheduled programs out of fear of not fitting in. People live way out of their means for fear of not being accepted. They put things into their body to cover up their pain. And the results show up in the form of disease, pain and dread of what might happen next. Our society lives primarily in the past or future. This keeps us in fear. We play the “what if” game  and the “I should’ve done that,” or ” I can’t believe I did that”. By delving into what happened or what might happen we lose the precious moments of now.

As I began to discover who I am, I explored the power of NOW! I studied from great teachers like Ekhart Tolle, Neal Donald Walshe, Wayne Dyer and many more masters. I took to heart their lessons and began practicing their teachings. I realized that in the now, pain does not exist. The present moment is always perfect. The present moment is the only truth. But what truly surprised me about living in the now is I began to discover who I truly am.

I took a course called The Opening Intensive, given by a company called Set Your Hearts Free, http://www.setyourheartsfree.com . At this event we learned through various processes the power of the now and the truth of who I am. During this event I delved completely into me, from what I was physically feeling in my body, to what my mind was creating, to noticing the rides of my emotions. I realized what I identified myself with and how false those identifications were. It was only after I let go of those identifications I began to see the truth of me. All that was left was light, beauty and love. A peace beyond anything I have ever experienced replaced the chaos in my mind. I also realized the connection that every human being has towards each other, the energy between us and the power of love.

This event was one example of how I began to open up to the beauty and power of me. I began to cherish every moment. I cherished every person I had the privilege of coming into contact. I realized that we are all expressions of the devine. We are all energy, unlimited, made from pure love. By extending love to others and using love to lead our lives we open ourselves up to a life filled with blessings. I have always lived my life in acts of service. Before my awakening I served in fear of rejection. I now serve with an openness and freedom that love and truth are one and the same. The more I give, the more I receive. I look at nature and children for guidance and find grace in the moment.

To begin to learn who you really are, start by living in the moment. Take a walk and begin to notice everything yours eyes land on. Note the beauty and perfection of what you see. Check to see if there’s a connection between you and what you are observing. These are the beginning steps of finding the peace of the present moment and the beauty and perfection of you!




6 responses

23 04 2010
Will Omega

How beautiful you are inside and out.


23 04 2010
James M. Giunta

Thank You so much for this inspiring article. It is enriching to read about your journey, and it’s wonderful to see how much you have to offer others who seek to improve their circumstances.

23 04 2010

A beautiful post Esther, just like your photo. You speak Truth. You shine Light. Namaste, Lori

23 04 2010

Thank you for your open heart, your willingness to share your journey as a beacon of light. Your writing is beautiful. I’m grateful for your presence.

26 04 2010

Tell me, Who you are! I think those words will forever be imprinted on the inside of my eyelids. Yes, the intensity of the whole event will be forever on my heart. The other spirits I connected with will forever be a part of my soul.
Esther, Thank You for sharing this intense event with me.

26 04 2010

My truth is that my body is not wrong or bad because it’s bigger than what the media and the diet industry tell me it should be. My truth is that I am happy with my powerful, strong, fat, obese body. This body lets me go for walks in the woods, for swims, and this body dances! Obesity is not an epidemic. People do not die of obesity. People of all shapes and sizes die of all different kinds of disesases.

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